Ugh my brain has spent the last 6 hours trying to come up with various techniques to do for a project where im not even sure i know what im doing.

It's like asking the blind to lead the blind.

No thats insulting, blind people are intelligent, they'd figure it out.

Me on the other hand, cannot, and it is stressing me OUT.

I spent all yesterday procrastinating over such issue, no luck. I refused to get out of bed till I got ideas, it worked. Thing is, im not sure they're right. But at least I tried yes? Well try as I might the pounding of my head at the moment says it was far to much work for me to do. I mean I actually got a headache for thinking to much. Wtf is that about?

Since I last updated.

I've had the flu.

I walked out of my home at 4am.

I gave up on real love.(my strange older man thing is still going on)

I let my imagination run riot to the extent it frightens me a bit.

Strange thing is, i'm stuck lately with this, feeling of excited fear; I don't want to grow up. But I think I might be too late.